Chubby for TOO Long!

week 8 and 9 weigh in!!

2011-06-06T14:30:00.001-07:00

Nutrisystem Review

Week 8 and 9 Weigh In!!

So this is a 2 week review.

I had my week 8 weigh in and then started a long

string of 12 hour work days

ending with an 18 hour shift!

I was so exhausted, i never blogged.

The day after that long shift we

began all the graduation festivities!

My husband graduated with his

bachelors in nursing!!

Needless to say, blogging got put on the

backburner

but weighing in and nutrisystem did not!!

Here are my results:

Week 8- I lost .7 lbs!!

Week 9- I lost 1 lbs!!

week 1: -5.2

week 2: -.5

week 3: -2

week 4: -2.2

week 5: -2.6

week 6: -.5

week 7: -1.3

week 8: -.7

week 9: -1

total 16 lbs!!

During all graduation parties

I have to admit that I didn't stick to

my Nutrisystem plans.

But today is monday

and I am back...

full commitment!

I have all these foods staring at me from

my pantry and freezer!

There was so way I can quit!

One of the best

parts of my these 16 pounds

is the change I am feeling in my body.

I bought a new bathing suit,

the same size i have worn for a while,

and guess what,

it was too big!!

I was thrilled.

I am seeing the change is my shape.

I feel more hour-glass shaped then ever before.

Nutrisystem has given me

the tools I need to lose weight,

which in turn has given me confidence in myself!

Here is a story about confidence!!

Maybe I shouldn't even tell you because

you may think I am crazy...

but so be it!

This weekend,

we went to a pinning ceremony for my

hubby's graduation!

It was for the 20 or so students that

he was graduating with.

The students in his program

have grown very close

and it was an awesome experience for him.

Getting ready for this event,

I wanted to look my very best.

I had to make a good impression!!

I always wear long skirts

cause I hate my calfs!!

they are huge!!

But I chose a knee-length skirt,

per my hubby's request,

and guess what...

it fit way better than it ever has.

those 16 pounds are making a differnce!

I got ready

and felt good about how I looked!

(here is my family at graduation)

At the event

i learned that my hubby

is known as the

smartest

and

best looking

in his class!

I know this sounds

superficial

but I was so glad that

I started nutrisystem

and by doing so

I am feeling better about myself

and more confident!

I was happy to be the

wife of the

smartest

and hottest

guy in their class!

(i always knew he was hot)

But seriously,

I wasn't worried about

other girls trying to steal him...

i know he loves me...

but worried about what was thought of me.

You have to admit,

people can look at a good looking

guy and see his wife

and think

really

why did he marry her?

I didn't want that!

And nutrisystem has made it so I didn't feel

that way!

I felt good about who I am!!

And that I am a good wife

for the

smartest and best looking guy!

Don't give up!

We can do this!!

We can help ourselves be healthy

and feel good about who we are!!

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Week 7 Weigh In!!!

2011-05-21T08:33:00.001-07:00

Nutrisystem Review

Week 7 Weigh In!!

I lost 1.3 lbs!!

week 1: -5.2

week 2: -.5

week 3: -2

week 4: -2.2

week 5: -2.6

week 6: -.5

total 14.3 lbs!!

I was really excited about this loss!

This was a good week

but I struggled with cheating too much.

I remember someone

saying that you need to count the

"BLT's"

Not this kind of blt

but

"bites, likes, and tastes!'

It really is amazing at how the "blt's"

add up.

The thing that saved me

was

my sister's treadmill!!

I haven't been as consistent

as I should with exercise,

but it is amazing how even a little helps alot.

What I love about

Nutrisystem

is has helped me

to relearn

how to know when I am full.

Before starting Nutrisystem,

I would eat til I felt sickly full.

Especially when out at a restaurant that we loved.

Now I have learned to feel when I first

become full

and more importantly

to stop eating at that point.

Last night we went to

Texas Roadhouse

...super yummy...

as a reward dinner for my 3rd grader

who worked really hard to pass all her

times table tests!

Dinner with mom and dad was her treat.

I was so happy when I felt full

and stopped eating!

That is a big accomplishment

and

Nutrisystem has really

helped to

eat appropriate amounts!!

Thanks Nutrisystem!!

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Weight Struggles!

2011-05-17T14:05:00.000-07:00

I have struggled with my weight

my whole life...

really as long as i can remember!

I dealt with it

and feel that I still have

positive feelings regarding myself.

But then I started having children.

As I have watched the 3 of them growing,

i realized that one of my girls

was so lucky to get my DNA!

I kind of felt guilty

passing on the struggle of obesity.

I swore I would be a great example to her.

I swore I would never bribe her with a cookie

or popsicle or candy...

but with a strawberry or orange.

That was long ago,

before I realized what it is really like to be a

MOM!!!

(you know this has been you...

at least once in your mothering career)

Not that I am saying that

"i can only get my kids to do things with junk food."

That is not it,

but I have learned that

motherhood

is not a piece of cake :)!

hehehe, that was pretty funny, huh?!?!?

My daughter, E, is now almost 9

and has a brother and sister who got their

Dad's skinny legs, small butt, and control over their eating.

My poor E got my thighs, butt, poochey tummy

and a crazy addiction to junk food!

Have I been the cause...

probably.

Have I kept junk food out of the house, most of the time...

probably not.

Have I taught E how to be healthy...

sadly no!

But I thought we were never supposed to

talk about these kind of things

with our kids.

Never say...

diet

or skinny

fat

chubby

lose weight!

That would ruin them,

cause them to be anorexic,

and make them fixate on their weight!

I really believed that, to some degree!

Til recently.

I had been thinking and praying

about what I can do to help my sweet E

be healthy!

I had a great chat with a girlfriend

who is having the same issues with one of her children.

Both of us are nurses

and we KNOW better!

We know

the health risk that our children

are faced with if we do not help

them with their weight!

diabetes, hypertension, stroke, early heart attacks

I am doing just as much harm to her

by not talking about it

as if i were to continually talk

about fat people!!

So today I googled...

"how to talk to your kids about weight loss."

I have to tell you there are some

amazing articles out there

about this subject.

It is okay to be honest

and talk to our kids.

And yet that info seemed to be floating

around in cyber-space

and not making it into my brain.

I am making a change.

I am going to have the difficult talk

with my super sweet E.

She deserves to have a mom who is going to fight for her

health and wellbeing.

Not fight against her...

but to show her that we are in the same corner

ready to punch obesity

right square in the kisser...

with her!!

I read alot of articles.

My favorite was called

"Overweight Children: tips for Parents"

Here is the link:

http://www.webmd.com/parenting/raising-fit-kids/mood/talking-kids-about-weight?page=1

They gave 9 tips.

My favorite was about being an example of

healthy living.

I'm trying...but I can do better!

In another article,

I read that if dad's make critical comments

to their daughter

they are significantly more likely

to have an eating disorder

as they get older.

Little girls love their dads

and need to know they love them...

unconditionally!

I am starting today!

And I am no longer going to focus

this blog just on me.

It is about my journey

to help my family become healthier!

and just maybe

I can help miss E

become healthy and strong

physically

and emotionally

and protect her from the pain

mean kids

who love to make

fat jokes!

Week 6 Weigh In

2011-05-17T11:17:00.000-07:00

Nutrisystem Review

Week 6 Weigh In!!

I lost 0.5 lbs!!

week 1: -5.2

week 2: -.5

week 3: -2

week 4: -2.2

week 5: -2.6

week 6: -.5

total 13 lbs!!

I was really excited to be continuing on

my downward path!

I know that I need to focus

on enduring!!

Enduring is really important

when it comes to losing weight.

Losing weight the healthy way...

diet and exercise...

are not a quick fix.

I so often want it to be.

But I need to endure!!

Endure through the...

cravings for grilled cheese and fries from the hospital grill

tired days when I do not want to exercise

moments of not wanting to cut up lettuce

(I know, boo hoo, cutting lettuce

sometimes I just don't feel like doing it)

days of wanting to sit with a gallon of ice cream

with a big giant spoon!!

Enduring is essential.

I have felt like Nutrisystem really helps me with

enduring!!

It is amazing how the

examples of other's helps me to keep going,

to fight the good fight!

As I was searching through the Nutrisystem website,

I found an article called "No faltering!"

This is a little excerpt,

just cause I feel that it was what I needed to hear.

Basically, recommit to living the program with exactness!!

Here is the blurb:

"It's easy to talk about making the hard choices and doing the right thing, but actually following through can be a lot more difficult.

• Do you say "no" to that second (or first) beer at the ballgame?

• On Sunday afternoon, do you reach for the chips and dip or your Nutrisystem® Zesty Herb Snack Mix?

• Are you still grabbing a donut or Danish with your morning coffee?

Nutrisystem is designed to be an easy, convenient program, but it's a program you've got to work. Part of doing that work is making a firm commitment to stay on track until you reach your goal weight.

If you're sloppy about it, you'll get sloppy results; it's that simple.

So recommit to your program today, and see what a difference determination can make."

(found at http://www.nutrisystem.com/jsps_lil/lil-daily-dose-article.jsp)

I am recommitting!!

Recommit with me!!

Even if you aren't on Nutrisystem

but you are trying to lose weight

recommit to doing the very best you can!

Or recommit to whatever it is that

you are trying to improve!

We can do it together!

hope this gave you a little chuckle!

My favorite quote...

i have it on my wall..

is by Gordon B. Hinckley:

"Try a little harder,

to be a little better"!!

I love that. It will be my motto this week!!

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I have entered 'Onederland'!!! Yippee!!

2011-05-06T10:39:00.000-07:00

Nutrisystem Review

Week 5 Weigh In!!

I lost 2.6 lbs!!

week 1: -5.2

week 2: -.5

week 3: -2

week 4: -2.2

week 5: -2.6

total -12.5 lbs

What is even more exciting is that I have enter

'Onederland'!!

Not this wonderland...

even though we LOVE this movie!!

But this 'Onederland'...

I have been longing for

This is an exciting land mark...along with 12.5 lbs lost!!

You know what helps me through the day!!

A Chocolate muffin for breakfast

followed by a banana and a yogurt!!

It was pretty great!

I remember reading in a diet book once

that having your personal team

of people to help you through

your weight loss was very important!!

So I thought I would introduce you to my team!

First and most important is my hubby!!

My awesome hubby always tells me I can do this!!

He also reminds me to not stress about mistakes either!!

Plus he always tells me that he loves me just the way I am

and sings me my favorite Bruno Mars song that says

...you are perfect just the way you are... :)

Even more, he reminds me that having a perfectly

clean house, perfectly cared for children,

perfectly crafted crafts and home decor, and

whatever other perfect things I feel that I need

to accomplish, don't really matter

if I don't take care of my physical body.

He reminds me that taking time for exercise is

a perfectly respectable and responsible thing to do!!

I love him!!

Next on my team are my mom and dad!!

I always know that I can call on my mom and dad
when I need some encouragement!
They are so uplifting to me
and help me to find the postive things
in all experiences that i come across!
I know that when any trial or hardship
comes my way...i can lean on them for my strength!

Next on my team are my kids!!

(this is us coloring eggs)
They really are the biggest part of my team!
They keep me focused on the what is important.
They keep me aware of making better choices.
They help me remember that
eating my Nutrisystem food is actually
alot cooler than eating regular food...
since they always want to steal it :)!
Most important, they love me no matter what!!

Next is my Sis!!

number 1...she is my next door neighbor
and a great support!!
She shares her treadmill with me
and makes me feel so good when I do
go use the treadmill!
She tells me how great I am
for working out!!
I love her!

Also on my team is my bro and his sweet wife!

Actually, my cute sis-in-law
is the one that got me the Nutrisystem Review
which I am very grateful for!!
Both of these guys are so wonderful!
They remind me that we all
just have to keep trying...
no matter what it is that we are trying to work on!
I wish we lived closer to these guys!!

And another important part of my team
is my Nutrisystem Family!!

It is so nice to have resources available
to you
when you need them!
You can always connect with other
Nutrisystem eaters,
or the employees including nutrition counselors
who will help you along the way!!
I appreciate that help

If you are trying to lose weight
and haven't built your team!!
Think about it now!!
And tell them they are your team!!
Tell them you need them!!

It makes all the difference!!

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Nutrisystem Week 4 Weigh In!!

2011-05-02T15:13:00.001-07:00

Nutrisystem Review

Week 4 Weigh In!!

Week 4 Weigh In

- 2.2 lbs!!

Yippee!!

That is a serious jump for joy!!

Here are the totals so far

week 1: -5.2

week 2: -.5

week 3: -2

week 4: -2.2

total - 9.9 lbs

So Great, huh!!

I have been now using

Nutrisystem

for 4 weeks and have lost

9.9 lbs!!

I am really excited about this!

The hardest part for me is

consistency!

I am pretty good at starting

diets and doing good

for like 2 weeks.

It is amazing how losing

Then I get tired of it and I

QUIT!!

With Nutrisystem

there is no quitting.

I already have the food

lining the shelves of my pantry.

If I feel like I want to quit,

and eat whatever I feel like,

I enter the pantry and there

is the Nutrisystem label

staring me in the face!

It has been a huge reminder.

It reminds me of the 9.9 lbs that i have lost so far

and I then feel rejuvinated!!

That is a fun word...

rejuvinated...

I like it.

It means

to restore to an original condition

to restore to youthful vigor or appearance!

I feel that both of these meanings

are relative

to my feelings of rejuvination

when I look in my pantry and see

the Nutrisystem label.

weight helps

to make a person look younger.

A new thing that I have discovered

in the Nutrisystem App

for my Itouch.

It is awesome!!

First you have your starting page where

you have access to all of the logs --

water, weight, exercise, food

You can enter your food very easily

with the food log section.

I love that when you press select,

the options that Nutrisystem gives you for

dairy/protein, fruit, and veggies

pop up and I can easily scroll through and find what I need.

Adding the food is very simple.

A simple swoosh and touch

enters what you ate.

It is so easy to few your progress as well.

It shows it to you in a nice chart format!

It is a great app...

if you are doing nutrisystem

or are thinking of doing nutrisystem

I would recommend trying out

this free app.

It is pretty great!

I am really enjoying Nutrisystem

and am working on a

video blog for

next week!!

Make sure you come back to see how

I am doing in my 5th week!!

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Keeping Busy

2011-04-23T19:59:00.000-07:00

Today our house seems to be

FULL

of Easter Candy!!

I swear,

every year,

that I will not buy any Easter candy...

but then I am standing there

face-to-face

with my biggest enemy...

the Reese's Peanut Butter Egg!!

And somehow,

not only does the crazy egg

jump in my cart,

but so does a whole lot

of other candy!

My hubby loves it,

he loves candy,

and can eat it and not gain weight.

He sucks, I know :)!!!

So, this morning,

my whole fam was over at

my sister's house next door

and I realized it was the perfect

opportunity to steal

myself one of them eggs!!

No one would know!!

I didn't do it!!

I found the will power to stop myself...

something I have lacked much of my life!!

I think I deserve a gold star for that!

Instead...

i kept myself busy!

I learned how to make some really simple skirts

for my girls.

The same awesome friend

who taught we about interval running

...see story here...

also taught me about these

cute skirts.

We had a quick phone conversation,

i jutted off to the local

fabric store

and came home for some

down-home sewing.

Really is a great way to

keep your hands out of the cookie jar...

You really can't sew with

cookie crumbs or such food residue

on your hands :)!!

Here are my creations!!

Cute, huh!!

I was super happy with how they turned out

and even more super happy

that I stayed away from

those oh-so-wonderful

Peanut Butter Eggs!!!

Happy Easter!!

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Weekly Weigh In #3- Nutrisystem Review

2011-04-22T08:46:00.000-07:00

My Nutrisystem Review!!

Weekly Weigh In #3!!

I lost 2 lbs!!!!

Total lost is 7.7 lbs!!!!

It is amazing how getting back my focus

really helps in reaching my goals.

Last night my kids had a school activity...

a mother/daughter bowling night!

We went and they had nachos and cookies

for everyone to have.

I have been dedicated to

following the

Nutrisystem

plan exactly

so I decided to

grab my Nutrisystem foods

and some cucumbers.

I survived...no succumbing to the

cheesy-nacho-goodness.

And guess what...

it feels

AWESOME!!!!

no guilt, no feeling bad, no sadness

Actually, Nutrisystem has great

grab n' go type bars

that are awesome for meals.

I didn't think I would really need them

when I started, but they sure have come in handy!!

This was a good week. I decided I would try

to increase my physical exercise as

well.

My sis, who happens to live next door,

purchased a treadmill recently

and offered to let me use it.

I only made it over one time...

but one is better than none!!

I have an awesome friend

who was telling me to try

interval running.

So that is what I did.

I walked for 3 minutes and then ran for 1 minute.

I did that whole thing for 30 minutes.

It made it go by so much faster because

you are always changing up what you are doing!

We can do this!!

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Weekly Weigh In!!

2011-04-21T10:54:00.003-07:00

My Nutrisystem Review
Week Two Weigh In!!
Friday was my weigh in.

I lost another 0.5 lbs!!

Running Total = 5.7 lbs!!

Yippee!!

I didn't do as well as I would like

due to the fact that I worked ALOT!!

I am a Newborn Intensive Care Nurse

and I work 12 hour night shifts.

This is a little of what I do...

it is the best job ever!!

I worked 9 out of the last 11 days

and I really wasn't perfect with

the Nutrisystem plan.

It is so difficult to stay up all night

that I let my guard down when it comes to what I

am eating.

It is totally my own fault.

I have the foods which are so easy to take

and eat...

but...

there are always bowls of chocolates/treats/junk

at work!!

It seems like everywhere you

turn there is chocolate at work!! :)

Sometimes I wanted to do this...

or maybe this...

The first week, I allowed myself

to be satisfied with the awesome Nutrisystem desserts

that you get everyday.

But staying up ALL night and working tons

I let my guard done

and found myself doing this...

It kind of stinks to have to be

brutally honest

with myself and everyone

in the blog world

when I say that I lost control this week.

Luckily,

all the good things that I learned with

Nutrisystem

and their foods that i ate

helped me to still lose

0.5 lbs!!

This week I am doing better!

Tonight I ate the

Salisbury Steak with Mac n' Cheese

which was really good!!

I had to fight off my kids

who were trying to steal it :)!!

I am really glad that I have the Nutrisystem program

to help me

get back on track

when I fall!

This was me...

This is me now!!!

I CAN DO THIS!!

Thanks Nutrisystem for helping me!!!

off for my nutrisystem dessert...yumm!!

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Official Start with Nutrisystem Nation Blogger!!

2011-04-01T12:41:00.000-07:00

I am super excited!!

I was accepted to be part of

Nutrisystem Nation Blogger!

I get to participate in their program for free,

in exchange for me blogging about it!

I put it on my review blog

http://momsreview4you.blogspot.com/,

but am going to paste it here as well.

I think of Marie Osmond

when I think of Nutrisystem!

I think she is cute...great smile!!

I love her before and after shots!

If I can do what she

did

I will be so thrilled!!

and guess what!

I know I can!!

You want to know why!

Because this is what I had for breakfast!

nutrisystem chocolate muffin

Pomegranate Yogurt

A juicy orange

It was so yummy!

I was so satisfied!

The muffin was so moist and super chocolately!!

My three kids were very upset they didn't get

a chocolate muffin!

I guess I will need to make some for them

next time!

I have participated

in other

'food by mail'

weight loss programs before

and didn't have the best experience.

I was a little skeptical...

even though i was excited...

to try Nutrisystem.

With the other program,

I ate what they sent,

and that was it!!

With Nutrisystem

your main course is provided

and then they tell you what to add -

such as a dairy or protein

a fruit

or a vegetable.

You are provided with a list of what can be counted as

a dairy/fruit/veggie

with it's serving size!

I love this.

My plans are to make my fruit/veggie

for my whole family

(plus their main course...that might be similar

to my Nutrisystem meal).

hopefully this makes it so we are pretty similar!

It was a great breakfast...

provided lots of energy!

I was able to get tons of cleaning done between

breakfast and lunch!

That is me...rocking out while I clean :)!!

Lunch was a yummy Margherita Pizza!

My three year old son cried when I didn't

have one for him. :)

I gave him a bite or two and he loved it!!

funny...when I pasted this picture into the post

my little man said

'oh mom, that was the pizza we eated.

i wubed (loved) it!!'

I guess we have a few fans here!

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We Gonna Rock this club!!

2011-03-31T13:34:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MUSIC!!!

Getting up and getting going

can be hard...especially when it is cold outside!

But guess what...

today is not cold!

It is in the 60's and for those of us living in

snowy places,

it feels wonderful.

So I am up and going!

I always know that music helps me get moving

and I recently made a

"motivate to move"

playlist on my ipod!!

Popped that puppy in...

and started moving!

You won't even believe it.

Yesterday i went to my sisters house

jumped on her treadmill

and walked for 2 minutes and ran for 1 minute

for 30 whole minutes.

I was seriously tomato face by the time i was done.

but boy did it feel good.

Today, i am taking the kids to the

soccer field to play a little soccer!

You should have seen my 6 year old

play yesterday...just following the

gaggle of girls

who were following the ball.

it was quite hilarious.

So...we are going to for a little practice

on appropriate soccer playing :)

I thought I would add my favorite

'motivate to move'

songs on my blog for a couple of days!

Maybe you will be motivated as well!

btw

We Gonna Rock this club

is from Taio Cruz' song

Dynamite!!

Love it!!

Holy Procrastination!!

2011-02-18T08:13:00.000-08:00

I am a procrastinator!!

And I know it!!

The problem is that I use food as my tool of procrastination

too often!!

Really, when there is a giant pile of projects for me to do...

most that I don't want to do...

I turn to food.

It usually isn't a fun project...

it is things like dishes/laundry/mopping the floor!

The problem is that I sneak into the kitchen for a snack to

keep from doing the projects that I need to do!!

SOLUTION:

Don't Procrastinate

Find another activity to procrastinate with...

like...

Just Dance - love that wii game

blog - feels good to sit and write

play with my kids - they would love that too!

read a book!!

The most important thing is that I can't feel guilty

for not doing the dishes

and for taking time to read

Why do I always feel guilty!!

It is an annoying emotion that I seem to feel a lot.

Why?

I don't know!!

but i should just enjoy taking a few minutes to myself...

I won't call it procrastination...

I will count it as personal sanity time (pst)

pst...I love it!

What will I do for pst today?

RoadBlocks!!

2011-02-15T13:13:00.000-08:00

daRn RoadBloCks!!!!

So I posted that I was going to get back on the road

to having better health!

How is it that as soon as I say that

...life happens!!!

Really...

when I am trying to focus on health

it seems like a giant stack of bills

JUMPS out and keeps me from my road!!

It really shouldn't be that hard,

but it is!

I don't know

but somehow...

CANDY gets in my way!!

REalLy who wants to say NO to this!!

Nobody, but I need to!!

I love reading Dr. OZ and he really helps me to

realize that this kind of sugar just keeps my body

craving more!!

fRucTose!!

The fake kind...

makes your body more hungry by not turning on your

"full"

hormones/receptors.

Plus, it causes inflammation in your body!!

As a nurse, I know that inflammation is the

start of soooo many diseases!!

I am saying

STOP!!

StreSS does not have to be my roadblock

I am physically going to push away

that big boulder in my path...

to a smaller butt :)!!

Tomorrow is the BiG day!!

2011-01-31T21:23:00.000-08:00

I think I say this all the time...

tomorrow I am going to start dieting

...yep, I say this alot.

It truly is...

the FIRST day of the rest of my life!

My name is Carly Peterson

I weigh 209 lbs (so I think cause I hate the scale)

DID I REALLY JUST TYPE THAT?!?!?!?!

Tomorrow I will get on the scale, take my waist measurements and begin trying to find a STRONGER me!!

I was deleting old entries on this blog...just to start fresh!!

But I couldn't delete my very first entry.

It tells you about me...

my struggles

...and my journey.

I am COMMITTING to me...right now!! I will be STRONG!!

I am seriously craving a Milky Way Bar...just let me go to bed!

Good Night old me!!

It all begins...

2007-12-10T16:13:00.000-08:00

I am not sure that I am actually going to let anyone see this blog, but I need to quit hiding my shame in another bag of chips. Let me start with the statement...I have always struggled with my weight!! Even as a little girl. I remember in 5th grade...sitting around the classroom during recess (it was raining outside) talking with the popular kids. First of all I was thrilled that I was sitting with the popular kids. I felt out of my element to begin with. I wasn't a nerdy kid in school or a popular kid...I was just one of those kids that floats from group to group. You know how some kids just seem to have a friend here and there...that was me. I liked that. Anyways, back to my story. I was sitting with the popular kids and one of the girls...Jamie...asked everyone "who is the fattest kid in the 5th grade?" My friend Tammy named someone (I don't even remember who), and Jamie said "No, it is Carly." I don't know if anyone else thought that, but it was an extremely embarrassing and life-altering moment. I, even now, 2 days before my 30th birthday, think about that situation. I still am the "fat girl". I actually try to use the word chubby because now that I have a 5 year old daughter, who also struggles with weight, I am chosing the word chubby over fat. It sounds less threatening, less demeaning. I also remember in elementary school, getting a physical, and the doctor accussed me of stealing other kids lunches. He said I couldn't weight as much as I did eating the lunches that my mom was sending to school with me. Still, writing this, makes me feel so small and hurt. It is so painful to think of people criticizing others for their weight. I have tried many diets over the years...starting in junior high school when I started weight watchers for the first time. I don't remember it doing any good and just be so mortified when I had to go to the meetings at the Jewish Community Center. I continued to gain more and by the time I was in the middle of my junior year, I had reached 199 lbs. Again, my mom and I started weight watchers. This time I really wanted this. I worked so hard and got down to around 170 lbs. My senior year was awesome. I grew my hair out longer and was down 30 lbs. I still wasn't a size 6 or even an 8 for that matter, but I was cuter than I had been!! Away to college I went and began putting on the pounds. By the end I graduated from college I had reached my all time high of 233 lbs. One day, as I was doing a project and I was standing on a ladder, not bending at all...I could feel my back fat touching....YUCK!! It was the most horrible experience EVER!! I was so mortified. I really didn't think I was that fat until that moment. I told my parents we had to do something!! So again we started Weight Watchers. I did really well that time. I lost over 50 lbs. I was between 175 and 180 when I married the love of my life!! I felt beautiful...i still had weight to lose, but I was feeling energized, healthy, and very happy. I started having kids. The day of my delivery of my first baby, I weighed in at a horrible 286 lbs. I can't believe that I was that large...yes I was pregnant, but I had gained about 100 lbs. At one point, I had gained 19 lbs in 4 weeks. I got back down to 203 lbs after Ellie and then got pregnant again with Aeryn.. Not as bad this time, I put on about 45 lbs. Then there was this last pregnancy. I started out at 215 lbs and delivered at 245 lbs. I had only gained 30 lbs. I was thrilled...But I am stuck!! This morning I weighed 235.5 lbs. I gained 4 lbs, this week. I am SICK of BEING CHUBBY!! So I started a blog, a place to get out my feelings and record my successes as well as my trials!! I hope that this can be my final attempt at trying to lose weight. I CAN DO IT!!!! I want to be healthy and have the energy to enjoy my kids and be the mother that they need!! My promise is to report in everyday! I will do it!!